---hello I sometimes ask what is the first thing you look at in the morning are you looking out of your windows to find any differences from yesterday I sometimes am wondering if ...do you have any windows at all? I know my apologies won't change anything but then I say sorry again by the fact that I at least have windows I often turn the alarm off in the cold mornings and I'm stupefied that you can't turn those unnecessary, ear-splitting noises down. Sometimes I ask too is the reason that you are smiling still is the promise of a place in the heaven that god carves for all of you ---are you there I saw the news and the captures of the lifeless, still eyes I feel the tears cascading down my cheeks. I think you are not there anymore and my heart crumbles at the thought of the pain that you feel felt. ---goodbye how are you doing right now are you laying down on the smaragdine grass under the blue skies or are you ...
no, not that kind of grey